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    7/8/2007

    七七事变

    晃点朋友成习惯了,拜作息规律所赐,不逆天意是很好的心理平衡。十点多,居然能这么早自然醒是个奇迹,看来有些人对我有力量。帅哥美女一大群,跋山涉水到南口。羊坊胜利涮肉居然就在38军某师某团附近,整整十三年前,一群文盲被拉到这个山沟里军训,我浑浑噩噩然于其中。那一天伟大领袖金正日逝世,小金同志会帮我记着的。

    即使有人会提起斯德哥尔摩综合症,我也要说军队生活是幸福的。不就是点儿意识形态么,时刻在耳边响起的东西哪有那么重要,十多年过去,有些东西不剩下一点渣渣,剩下全是生命符号和鲜活片段。一把花生两瓶啤酒凑合了生日的老吴;穿军装的校花比空乘还有感觉;青年的面孔坚毅而完整,等待被爱情泄掉精气神儿,但坐在坦克架子上背单词的衰人除外;后勤处长家总是物资丰富,构成中国特色的一部分,哪怕偏居军营;篮球场上的群殴;大操场上的讲武会;礼堂的汇报演出,蒙面唱一块红布的北京地痞和红不起来但做派十足的东北奶油;五个男青年在石子铺就通往女青年的坦克通道上定时出现,大杨树的绿茵下是履带的压痕;挺着黑肥肚腩的团长真他妈的像个土匪;任彦申很有口才;后来游山玩水都称不上拉练,因为不再有绿厚军装可穿,也不再有一
    上午四五十华里的仓惶;八路军使过的步枪和三十年前的子弹我总也打不准,只为消耗过期弹药做了贡献;小班长示范如何让一颗子弹燃烧而不是爆炸,带我跟老吴去偷桃儿,夜里会突然把脑袋钻进蚊帐检查有没有人在干坏事。正宗兵痞们进入记忆,就不再允许价值观的判断,如果如奥古斯丁说恶就是善的无,那他们起码不是恶的,当他们不仅仅是合法杀人者的时候。

    那以后我再也不能象巴尔加斯·略萨那样说自己是个和平主义者,“除去射精,没有射过任何东西”。但是朵朵白云投下的影子象羊群飘过山岗,这个文字景象在那片儿山沟里成为我的真实,被老兵操练的青年,用汗水浸渍下苦涩无比的双眼,死死的盯着看。相比之下,今天的羔羊肉不够鲜美,美女们也都很沉默。

    回家路上购得鱼缸和鱼,对这种不到十岁就会养活的东西始终情有独钟。阵雨过后有彩虹从天而降,想起当年未名湖上。

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